back to usual again....

Although there's other people wit us
but luckily wat i expect doesnt happen, no black face, no hard feelings......

this consider a good one
all the while i thought _X_ did not realize our movement or imply
but it seems that _X_ knows and pretend duno
i am shock when being told _X_ feels console when saw him enjoying & happy
that means _X_ know everything since the moment i tell out our plan!
im glad that no sabotage from anyone instead everyone was enjoyed!! GOOD!!!

_XY_ says we could plan another trip & go together!
maybe u might be reading this blog, however after this incident i don't think

we could have another trip anymore, coz i dun wana be in the same situation again,

tis was a mental torment since the day we confirm to go! no for next time pls!!!

After this trip i feel emptiness, no more excitement & expectancy
haizzzz....i have to go back to work ---a work that i dun enjoy & love at all
& i wish to leave a.s.a.p! leave those uninvited pressure
& un-enjoyable working environment......i rather work far far away than this comp.
but is not that easy to find a new job in my field
which i need to have contacts to get in......
haizzzz......god can u give me luck to meet someone tat could help me, pls??