Everyone have their own problems...once the particular problems are solve there will be a new one appear, this is all because of our unlimited wants. Already have it, then demand more & more..I wouldn't deny that I am this kind of person, sorry for demanding you so much.
I should be the one that understand the most of the result on "demanding too much". It is neither easy to accept nor change our self to match the WANTS and DEMAND of another person. Because I my self don't like to do so.After reading a book or magazine (don't know which one) I saw a term says that " love what you choose, and choose what you love" thus making some big decision is important because it might influence our future. Such as career, education, buying properties or even lovers. Do I choose wrongly? or before that i didn't think deeply about the risk and problem that might be facing in the future? or i should think so much and do what ever i think i should or wanted to?
I always think is it I am not confident enough to reject some unwanted offer? or am i too kind to take care other peoples feeling until I lost my own Principe? my answer is YES!! I know i am not confident enough sometimes to make decision, to do something, this is not a good think.
Confidence will help us a lot in our life, lack of confident will proceed to many problems that are unexpected and time costing.
I always think am I regretting to accept your confess so fast?
Should I consider deeply, is it we are suitable to be together? do we really match in our thinking? actually that time i already you are not my mr right but i still accept ur confess.
Maybe I just want to have a boyfriend to love me. I am selfish!!! i hate myself of doing all things that hurts you so much. We shouldn't be together at the beginning, or else we might ended by breaking up. But, since we have decide to be together at that moment, we have to take responsible to this relationship, i know u have change a lot to match my wants, so i hope i could change for you to match both of us better. At here now, i know you would say, please don't do so, but i just want to let you know that a lovers relationship is not just depending on 1 person to change and match the another one but both changing to match each.
In the past, i didn't really settle our problems properly and take it seriously,
i hope it is not too late for me to do so. I don't know how long can we be together & how far are we, but at least in this moment i don't hope to break up, i want to try to improve my self and our relationship. Because i don't hope that i have any repentant in the future even after we broke up.That time I would tell my self that i have tried my best to improve.
